… or, in this case, your Bella.
I was thinking recently about all of the things – both little and not-so-little – that have changed around here since we lost Bella in May. Sometimes it seems like I’m surrounded by a thousand tiny reminders on any given day.
Loosely inspired by this song, here are twenty (out of countless) ways I miss my Bella:
- Every morning, I wake up to the sight of an empty dog bed. I can’t quite bring myself to move it.
- I haven’t moved her food dish either.
- My morning routine has changed. I’d gotten used to spending at least thirty minutes cajoling Bella into eating her breakfast.
- There’s no one in the blanket cave that Bella liked to hide in.
- In fact, I washed the blanket in question and put it in the linen closet.
- The nights are different too. It’s quiet without her nightly cave to bed migration.
- I miss her snoring. It was loud, yet so comforting.
- It’s weird to walk by the front door and not see her watching the world go by.
- Tavish has been spending less time staring through those windows as well.
- Every time I vacuum, I feel a little sad. With each pass, I’m removing more Bella hair that will never be replenished.
- For that reason, I didn’t even try to vacuum for the first month.
- When I finally did vacuum, I couldn’t stop thinking about the time(s) Bella left a toy in front of the vacuum as her own form of protest. We (perhaps inappropriately) called it her Tiananmen Square move.
- My stairs are curiously clear of furry obstacles.
- I miss helping Bella go up and down the stairs.
- My kitchen seems empty too. I keep avoiding Bellas that are no longer camped out waiting for food to fall from the sky.
- I’m falling out of practice with regard to all of those hand signals.
- Tavish seems to spend a lot more time licking the humans in the house.
- Sometimes I wonder if that’s because his usual kissing target isn’t available now.
- Working in the yard is weird too. She always loved to supervise (aka nap in the flower beds) while we puttered around.
- I really, really, really miss my Bella hugs.
How I miss that sweet and silly face…
#10 was huge with us when Sam passed. Even picking up his last poops in the yard made us sad. I have one room where Sam was only allowed in – my craft room. I still haven’t vacuumed it – finding his hair in there is comforting to me.
Monty and Harlow
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I know exactly what you mean…
Oh honey, I’m so very sorry. We’re closing in on that time with both our senior Aussie mix dogs. Not looking forward to it. (((HUGS)))
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They leave such a huge hole in our lives when they’re gone. I think it helps to have other dogs, nothing was worse than when we only had one dog and lost her. Talk about emptiness. But no matter how many other pets you have, the one that is gone still had so many special and unique things about them that will always keep reminding us of them.
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So very true.
Oh, golly. Now I can’t stop crying. This is such a beautiful tribute to sweet Bella. I’d write more, but… I need tissues.
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I promise I’ll try not to make them so sad all the time!
Best of luck on writing a post every day this month – this post is certainly a way to start! I think Bella will stay with you for a very, very long time and that’s how it should be. I did crack up at her vacuum protest. My dog just likes to run around like a crazed wildabeast and then try to be a daredevil by running right in front of it!
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Oh, that Nico. He’s a brave one! 😉
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It is so sad. Mom dreads the day one of us leaves her. She will never be forgotten but it will be a bit easier to deal with losing her in time.
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I still find Tucker hair even after a year. I was doing some gardening the other day and found some. It breaks my heart.
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I can relate. ((hugs))
Hugs. Just hugs. Lots of hugs.
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Thank you.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s so hard to lose a loved one, regardless of species. It sounds like you gave her a wonderful life.
It is so hard to lose a loved one. My thoughts are with you. Having lost too many pets, I know that it does get easier with time, even if the pain never completely leaves. However, I always think the joy outweighs the pain.
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That’s so sad. We are thinking about getting a rescue dog at the moment. She is old and so no one wants her, but I’m scared of the above… but the joyful moments must make up for all of this in abundance 🙂
You made me feel a little better about not cleaning the dirty rub marks on the bottom of my door for so many years.
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